As much as possible and right at this moment, I try to isolate myself from certain things and people.

You all know that I am the pessimistic type, right? I always tend to look for the dull side of a situation. I’m a fraud and I’m afraid. Afraid of everything. And worse, when a thing or a person turns into a disappointment to me, I become rough and irritable.

I know questions are lingering inside your head. Here are my answers to those questions. I don’t necessarily avoid them. I call it “isolation”, though. For the past few days, a lot of things have changed. Many had gone between each of us, most especially, between me and my closest-ever friend. As much as I can, I tried to ignore those hindrances that kept on coming our way, but I guess I have my limitations, too. You know what I mean, people? I love this friend of mine very much that I become so possessive of her at times. But then I realized, I couldn’t just tie her around the neck and keep her close to me. She grows, and so am I. I have to let go of some things, and most importantly, I have to let go of her.

It doesn’t mean that I’m going to isolate myself from her and from my other friends permanently. I guess I just gotta figure out what I really need at this point in time. I try to focus on other people, and on my studies. Those friends of mine, though I know that there are times that they disappoint me totally, but it does not mean that I loathe them for that. It’s just that instead of being angry at them for upsetting me, I’ll just have to isolate myself, so that we will avoid chaos.