Last night, April 14. Something happened. O yeah. 

I was waiting for my Friend to go online but after several minutes of waiting, wala parin sya. Then, our maid arrived. Nakipagharutan muna ko sa kanya. YEAH. Tapos napagod ak. haha. I tried to lie down on my bed, but unfortunately, I accidentally banged my head on the “almost-steel” headboard. The wall was behind the headboard, so it means that I banged my head real hard.

Trying to shake the pain away, I texted my Friend. I told her na nag-off nako because I was already feeling weird, heavy and dizzy. I told my ‘rents that I couldn’t stand the pain anymore. Mom noticed that my eyes were already swollen. Scared that I might be having an internal hemmorhage, Dad decided to bring me immediately to the hospital.

In the hospital, the doctor in charge checked my head. He searched for external bleeding or even just a simple bump, but he found nothing. This scared both of my parents. I mean, of course it will be a whole lot better if my head had been wounded on the outside rather than INTERNALLY. They advised me to be observed by the doctors for 24 hours in order to check whether there is a blood clot (blood clot in my head) or not. So I texted my Co-workshoppers that i might not come the next day for the Journ workshop.

The nurse led me upstairs. She injected a needle inside the vein at the back of my left hand. Damn it. Anything but needles, please! I was like, screaming my favorite name in this universe inside my head when she was injecting that stupid dextrose. The nurse also told me, “Huwag kang mahihimbing ng tulog. Gigisingin ka namin every fifteen minutes to take your blood pressure. Pwede ka matulog basta pag nahihimbing ka, we’ll just tap your shoulders. Baka kasi may blood clot ka sa ulo, at kung may blood clot nga at nahimbing ka, ‘Goodbye, world’…” And then she left. Mom and Dad went home to get me some clothes and other things, which makes me alone inside the very dark and quiet room. I’ve got no one to talk to so I tried to text my closest friends. Shit. I started to cry in agony while praying.

When my parents came back, it was already almost 1am. The back of my head was throbbing terribly. I tried my best to sleep but I really can’t. The nurses were knocking at the door every fifteen minutes. They are doing the same thing and asking the same questions. “Masakit pa ba yung ulo mo?”, “Ano nararamdaman mo?”… 2am came and then I dozzed off involuntarily. “Bahala na si Bro kung magigising pa ako o hinde…” I said.

Dozens of text messages from a whole bunch of people woke me up at around 7:30am. They were all asking for my health updates. Feeling much better than the previous night, I texted them that I am getting better, despite the numbness of my left hand due to the dextrose.

Now this morning, I was woken up by the nurse in charge. She made me took my medicines, checked my blood pressure then left. Whew. I thought she’s going to take another syringe of blood from me like the other nurses did before. I told you, I hate needles! A few hours later, another set of nurses came in. “Tatanggalin na namin yung dextrose mo… Uwing uwi ka na daw eh.” I smiled at them and said, “I am missing a lot already…”

A long story, right? I know. I’ll never ever forget that night. THAT NIGHT WHEN I WAS LIKE, CRYING THE HELL OUT ALONE IN THE HOSPITAL ROOM. Thank God I’m so lucky to have a lovable family and a supportive group of friends. And that was then I realized, that it is really important to pray. What I mean is, when it feels like you’re already giving up, nothing’s ever gonna save you from your fear except holding on to your faith in God. ;)

 SPECIAL THANKS♥!

 Krissa Malubay. Zhai Porcincula. Chukie Gajo. Zyrene Flores. Ej Abalon. Sir Gee. FLC. Pepmates. Schoolmates. Infi family♥. Luis Castro♥. Concerned Peeps. Ate & Kuya. Lolo. Mom. Dad. My family in California USA. My extended family in Manila. And to those who aren’t mentioned here..

…I love you. Every single one of you. Thanks for all the concerns, laughter and conversations that cheered me up during the Night ;) :*

Peace out, everyone! It’s nice to be back.

PS: And I’m free again. Da doo doo doo doo doo. =))