Don’t you think it’s sad that you already get immune to those recurring aches that people brings you? It makes you numb and disheartened. I don’t think it’s a good thing. The worst? You couldn’t even blame them, because they do not know it in themselves that they cause you pain.

Time passes by and then you realize that those people never did ask you if you’re okay with the things that they have done. They didn’t even bother thinking that they are hurting someone. They came and they left. You were once a complete person and now there’s a missing piece of your heart suddenly. Human nature, I guess. After they get what they truly wanted, they will leave you hanging in the open air. Like you don’t mean a thing to them, despite the respect that you have given them when they were experiencing the same kind of pain that you are currently going through.

You did all you could. You have laid down your pride and set aside your doubts in order to rekindle what’s already shattered. But then you began to realize that you’ve been strong for long enough, and you can’t go on forever humbling yourself and reaching for them which are as high as the skies. You began thinking of all the things you have missed, the pride of yours and self-esteem that were lost along the way. It’s just plain sad.

But the good in here is, you move on. You start to accept that even the people you have labeled as friends, can hurt you in a way that you don’t really expect. You become blank everytime you hear their name, you begin to create a new chapter, you start forgiving, but the pain, it’s just there. The pain never really goes away. You just started to learn how to cope with it. And there’s nothing you could do. You can’t turn back the hands of the clock to undo what has happened.