If you are going to ask me that question, I’ll probably answer, “Maybe. It wouldn’t be much of a life, though.”

Because yes, life is easy if I didn’t damn fall in love with you. Life’s gonna be that easy, but it’s never gonna be the same. I wouldn’t call it a life, because I’d probably be just the dull same old Bianca that I was years ago. Ignorant, insensitive, boring… Though I won’t say that I am perfect now, but hell, you changed me. A lot. See, I’d rather face the difficult times with you around than have easy times alone. Selfish? Probably. But I guess I just don’t know how to handle it.

I’d say I’m sorry for being so selfish, immature and stubborn sometimes. I might be the worst girlfriend that you could ever have, but believe me, if a single person would say that I didn’t love you with all that I can, I’d kill him. I swear I do.

Thanks for all of the things that you have done to me. Big, small, good and bad, I don’t really care. Thanks for being yourself. Thanks for listening to me when I get all weepy. Thanks for acting stupid and cheesy with me. Those times, trust me, I will never ever forget. The future plans? To be honest, I am really looking forward to spend my life with you. Though I don’t really know if we’re going to marry each other seven years from now, I am still looking forward to it to happen.

Sorry for dragging you into this mess, love. I bet your life would be so much easier if you weren’t in love with me, right? I know. But really, I do love you. I swear, I REALLY REALLY DO. And no matter what those people will say, I’ll never ever give up on you. I promise that. Hindi ako susuko. Lalaban ako hangga’t kaya ko.

I miss you. And I love you. Damn freaking much. Always remember that.
~Bianca.

PS: Could we please talk as soon as possible? I’ve really missed our late night talks, your voice, especially.